One question (asked)
One answer (given)
An impulse
A 13 year addiction
A lifetime of scars.
I started cutting at the age of 14.
Using a red Swiss army knife, I would make tiny, superficial incisions on my hands that could easily be hidden beneath my rings. I discovered cutting came with an immediate sense of relief.
As I became more comfortable and daring with my blade, the self-inflicted wounds became longer…and deeper. How did I get to the point of being able to physically harm my own body? All I can tell you is that I was overpowered with emotions - emotions too intense to communicate. I was so desperate for some kind of release. For me, cutting did just that – it numbed my emotional pain, momentarily freeing me from the internal anguish I was experiencing. Simply put, it was easier to bleed then it was to feel…and for a short time, I felt better.
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Some people choose drugs. Some people choose alcohol. I chose to cut. What started as an impulse became an addiction for 13 years. Cutting was the one thing I could rely on to relieve the intense emotional pain I was in. It allowed me to have control over something in my life, when everything else seemed to be falling apart. I cut because it was easier to bleed than it was to feel. As the cutting became more frequent, my brain connected to the false sense of relief I got from bad feelings - I craved it every time the pain was too difficult to bear. Because I was overpowered by emotions, I could never communicate with anyone how I was feeling. Cutting numbed and distracted me from what was killing me inside...it was my quick fix.
Cutting is an “unspoken addiction” people fear to talk about because self-harm is a scary topic to address. Most cutters are secretive, ashamed by what they do. This site is intended to be a place where people can feel safe sharing their stories and truly recognize that they are NOT alone. 1 in every 200 adolescent girls between the ages of 13-19 cuts regularly. With societal pressures growing daily, cutting has become a huge epidemic. We can no longer brush this issue under the table - it needs to be addressed and people need to become aware. IT IS A REAL ISSUE. People who cut are not freaks - they are people with intense pain who cannot cope in a healthy manner. So be brave, take a chance and speak up, tell your story...this is a JUDGMENT FREE zone!
Cutting is an “unspoken addiction” people fear to talk about because self-harm is a scary topic to address. Most cutters are secretive, ashamed by what they do. This site is intended to be a place where people can feel safe sharing their stories and truly recognize that they are NOT alone. 1 in every 200 adolescent girls between the ages of 13-19 cuts regularly. With societal pressures growing daily, cutting has become a huge epidemic. We can no longer brush this issue under the table - it needs to be addressed and people need to become aware. IT IS A REAL ISSUE. People who cut are not freaks - they are people with intense pain who cannot cope in a healthy manner. So be brave, take a chance and speak up, tell your story...this is a JUDGMENT FREE zone!
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